clean this up
change this part here,
make this part
make this part different
it's too messy
too much
too
just clean it up a little
cut
cut
cut
change
tape
cut and paste
scissors doing their
scissoring job
while i take out the face paint
and draw on the smile that the
magazine told me
would look better on me than the shape my lips formed as they
made way for the
scream
"where am i in all of this noise?"
i may look better to you, i may sound better,
cleaner,
neater.
i may be carefully creased at the edges,
folded,
put away,
but my mind is gone,
my face,
where'd i put it?
i don't know where i am in all of this
tidy packaging
because i
i was never meant to be boxed up i guess.
i liked it better messy,
i knew myself in messy,
and even when i let the scissors
do their scissoring job
i'm still down here looking up, hearing footsteps on the ground above thinking
"i wanna be up there too"
because i'm not that tidy.
i'm not folded,
and if the words flow better messy?
let them.
because hi
i am messy
i am incoherent sometimes
sometimes my face breaks out
sometimes i make no sense
sometimes i sit in front of empty pages like this one was and have no idea what i'm doing, and doubt myself and everything
i
have
ever
done
everything i've
ever made,
everything
i am.
they invited me to the party, but i hear they have a
they have a dress code,
and i'm sorry but if that's the case?
if that's the case i guess i can't come
because if i come,
i do not come to the party with perfect skin and clothes,
i come wounded,
black,
blue,
limping.
and i'm not gonna hide the place where the bullets found me
where the words,
the cut,
copy,
paste,
found me.
because underneath the noise
the bass,
the velvet words,
the flawlessness?
they're all limping too.
whoa. this is so powerful and important. love the format too! and the picture is stunning!
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Deletewowowowo owww you guys <3 thank you thank you thank you xoxo
Delete..wow. Not even kidding, I have read this four times. It's so insanely powerful.
ReplyDelete"because underneath the noise
the bass,
the velvet words,
the flawlessness?
they're all limping too."
I feel like that's so easy to forget. I know that it is for me.
Honestly I just want to take everything that you write and spray paint it all over a wall in the middle of a big city for the everyone to see. It would make the world a better place.
lovelovelovelovelove
p.s. you're stunning um wow
omggg wibiwegf aaaaahhh GRACE ANNE THANK YOU. YOU ARE AMAZING ALRIGHT.
Deleteit is really easy to forget... i totally feel you on that one. it can be so hard to put yourself in someone else's shoes and realize that wow, they're actually going through the same thing too. but it's so comforting when we realize that.
your sweet words mean sosososo much girl :')
um also like whenever i reread this and the part about wanting to spray paint this on a wall in a city?? like...crying... <3
DeleteRETWEET GRACE ANNE SO HARD
Deleteomg you guys want to make me cry :''') i am convinced that is your goal omg :') :')
DeleteI like the formatting, it is very modern poets. It reads really well, I like how it is a pros poem.
ReplyDeletegotta say, i had a bit of fun with the formatting on this one. thanks, girl!
Deletewhat are words.....................
ReplyDeletethis is BEAUTIFUL like gahhhhhhhhh
ohhh my goodness thank you
DeleteTHAT LAST SENTENCE HIT ME SO HARD. WOW XOXOX
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Deletei legit never have words after reading your words ALLKDFJALKFJMALWECKM XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX danGGGGGGGGGG
ReplyDeletei never have words after your words about my words :') ily man
Deletelove you too dude
DeleteWow! So beautiful. <3
ReplyDeletegracious, thank you so much <3
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ReplyDeleteholy buckets you <3 :')
DeleteI'm just gonna be laconic here.... Wow.
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DeleteThis is actually perfection and I can't handle it???
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thank you soooo much, M ♥
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because your posts kill me every time until i'm speechless and I just have no idea what to say because it covers so much and hit me so hard that just
yeah.
thanks.
Randy Abby
WAKE ME UP Blog
your comment made my life basically. ♥
Delete*just speechless*
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DeleteWow. This hit me.
ReplyDeleteThank you a million times, Katie. ♥♥
thank *youu* Megan ♥ :')
DeleteWow, wow, WOW(!) this was powerful. Like a punch in the gut that was very much needed. This line echoed in my mind, reverberating:
ReplyDelete"where am i in all of this noise?"
I've been wondering the same thing. And my word, I come to the party being pushed in a wheelchair, both legs gone. Beautiful words that I needed to hear. This was poetry.
ohhh my goodness thank you Erin....honestly just wow everything you said means so much to me ♥ we're stronger than than the noise, loud as the noise may be. we are lou d e r
DeleteAll of it. Just all of it. 😭😭😭❤️❤️❤️
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DeleteHey Kate! I nominated you for the Ultimate Writer Tag on my blog, Spreading My Joy here: https://spreadingmyjoy.blogspot.com/2016/09/the-ultimate-writer-tag.html
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ohhh thank you so much ♥ i will head over to check it out!
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ReplyDeleteI know this is literally three years later, lol. But this post was ADJFLKASJDFLASDKF like wow. I'VE JUST BEEN SCROLLLING THROUGH YOUR BLOG SOAKING UP BEAUTIFUL WORDS AND INSPIRATION AND A;SLKDFJASDF IT'S BEAUTIFUL. So just in case you needed a little pick me up: you're awesome and you're words are beautiful. Girl. Keep writing.
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Lydia
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